Shinji After Bardiel: Refusing to Pilot Stops Feeling Like Escape
SPOILER!Before the Unit-03 incident, Shinji can still imagine quitting as a way to remove himself from the violence around NERV.
After Gendo uses the Dummy Plug to destroy Toji's Eva, that idea collapses. Shinji can refuse an order and still be forced to witness what his Eva does.
After Gendo uses the Dummy Plug to destroy Toji's Eva, that idea collapses. Shinji can refuse an order and still be forced to witness what his Eva does.
Why it matters
His later return against Zeruel is not a reset to the boy from episode 1. He returns knowing that piloting and refusing to pilot can both hurt people.